27

Helllooooooo! Last time we spoke, I was telling yall about how bad my week was going, but actually good things were happening. This week was actually bad. I won't go into detail, but I do have a story for you. 

SURPRISE!!! I started the week off in the hospital with the flu. WTF. Yes it was going around my classroom, but this isn't new. The flu visits my classroom every year, it just skips me. I was shocked yall. And ummm the way they test you for the flu...that shit isn't cool. It was the most uncomfortable 2 seconds of my life!! Having the flu, means calling off work. Calling off work means planning for a sub. Planning for a sub means, knowing things are going to go wrong. Knowing things are going to go wrong means having low expectations. Yall, even with all that, I didn't see this coming. My kids are so innocent it's crazy. I was home, sleeping off a fever I'm sure, and I start getting text messages and Class Dojo messages from parents. The gist of the messages are that the kids don't want to come to school tomorrow because the sub scared them. I'm thinking OMG what did she do to my kids?! Then I find out that all she did was yell at them...*face palm* Poor innocent kiddies. 

So let's get into 27....

I woke up on one of the 9 days that I've been 27 and decided I wanted to start being different. I spend a lot of time thinking about how I'm not the woman I want to be, how I need to make sacrifices, stand up for my wallet, and treat my body like a temple. I woke up ready to start doing things differently to become who I want to be. This all stems from thinking about what self care really means to me and discovering that it means self preservation. My view of self care became so childish and so dangerous to who I want to be and what I want my life to look like.  

The first big decision I made had everything to do with my alcohol intake. YALL KNOW ME! YALL KNOW I LOVE MY LIQUOR! Alcohol was a huge part of my self care, but is drinking really taking care of me? The way that I was drinking...there's no way that shit was healthy for any part of me. And it costs a lot of money. I thought it was going to be hard. Any time I ever thought about decreasing my alcohol intake, it was like for what? Bitch for you! I'm so dumb sometimes. This is not to say I won't turn up, because I will LOL but don't count on me to come to the bbq and down 7 shots for nothing because no. We're not doing that anymore. 

The second big decision I made was to decrease the amount of tv I watch and to find something else to fill it's place. There is nothing wrong with tv, there are just other things I want to get into. Recently, I bought some puzzles. I got some new books. I've been trying to get into some new music, but I'm really specific about music. I can't just listen to everything. I'm working on that one LOL

The third big decision I made was to decrease how much of my personal time I give to my job. This one is the hardest, as teaching is a job that is never really done. I struggled really badly my first year. I used to go to school on Saturdays to work and work at home on Sundays, plus most week days. I've scaled way back, but I need to scale back some more. My job is one of those things I hide behind...I'm tired of hiding, but more on that later. 

The fourth big decision I made was all about sex. I'm not a ho. Not even close. But in deciding to treat my body like a temple, I've got to be careful about EVERYTHING that goes into my body. Sex doesn't just come with fear of disease or pregnancy, but, in some cases, feelings and situations. I'm just not trying to go there. I don't got time. 

I told 27 that I'm going to be good to it. I intend to keep my word. I hope I continue to surprise myself in these ways. I'm doing things, thinking about things and believing in things that I never would have before. 

Yall will be with me every step of the way, right? RIGHT? 

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