A Couple Years Behind

Anyone that knows me, knows that I live my life slooooowly. Not taking many risks or really putting myself out there. Don't get me wrong...even with that being said, boring could not accurately describe me. I may say so sometimes, but don't take that too seriously. 

In speaking with a friend of mine recently, I've finally been able to figure out this stuff I've been feeling. I'm living my life a good 6 years behind my friends when it comes to boys and sex. I waited until I was 23 to have sex and now I'm turning 24. I barely have a year in the game. I'm friends with this guy and I'm baffled by my confusion because I'm too old for this . I am a very capable and confident young woman, but this shit be having me like ????????? lol

The part that gets me the most is that it's all new...Like too many new things going on at once. I can't keep up. And the second part that gets me the most is the fact that I'm not used to not knowing what I'm doing. 

Experience really is the best teacher. I'm feeling things and doing things that my friends already lived through. They're giving me all this advice and I'm being a stubborn TEENAGER!!!! I always think I know what I'm doing but that's stupid!!! THEY'VE BEEN THROUGH IT! I used to be the one giving out all the advice, but in this situation, where everything I'm doing is new to me, I need all the advice. A hard head makes for a soft ass. Let's hope I don't have to learn that first hand.