BAELANI that is!!!

This post is dedicated to Kehlani Parrish. 
I did not get a chance to listen to the album until around this time yesterday (930am) and I have not turned it off yet. I am completely obsessed!!
I patiently and waited for this album every day since I found out when it was coming. 
If you haven't heard it yet, GO LISTEN. She put everything I needed into this album. 
I know she's not everybody's cup of tea so I'm not gonna throw her down your throat (unless your name is Te'Jal and you can hear it playing all day from my phone, computer or ipad....sorry lol). 

My favorites are:
Everything Is Yours (...This is just everything for all the right and wrong reasons. Yes BAE!)
Personal (my life right now...LET THEM KNOOOOW!!!)
Piece of Mind 
In My Feelings (come through with the New Edition sample guuuurl)
Gangsta (makes me wanna watch Suicide Squad every time I hear it)
Distraction 
Escape (such a sweet song)
I Wanna Be 

The last album I was obsessed with this badly was Royalty...the deluxe version! I won't be listening to anything else for a while. Royalty...the deluxe version lasted for MONTHS...I'm like 1000% sure Kehlani will outlast that. This is just Gold. Pure Gold. 
Cloud 19 and You Should Be Here...were good too!
K I'm done bye now :)

So this morning, I received a text message from my best friend. She told me something that I would've been upset at had it happened to me. Instead, she was reflective. I like to think that I am, but I'm reflective too far after the fact. Like oh yeah 5 months ago I should've done xyz. I'm trying to get better at catching my errors closer to when they happen. It's impossible to avoid making mistakes, but if I can catch them sooner, I can begin to modify my actions to avoid repeating them sooner. If that makes sense. 

As I was going through my facebook feed today I felt like some of my past errors were thrown in my face a little bit. The biggest one of all was settling for mediocrity. I look back at my college experience and yes I graduated, but I could've done so much more with the experience. I don't feel like I've ever done anything great. I've just been good enough to get by and that's starting not to be enough for me. I am more than what I've been. I have more to offer than I've ever shown. I understand more of what your reputation, dedication, hard work, and performance does for you. It builds your credibility, it makes people proud of you, it makes the hopes and dreams that people have for you a reality. 

I've been trying so hard to do things for me and not for the approval of others, that I've completely negated how that can be seen. I am a professional. What I do, how I perform, what I bring to the table, and how I present myself, are linked to me. Even in my personal relationships, I have to be someone worth keeping. Mediocre people are okay with mediocre friends. I don't want that and I don't want to be that. 

I feel like I sound like an idiot. Hopefully someone understands what I'm trying to say. 

My point is....I finally understand the value of putting your best foot forward.