This is the part of my vision board that gets a little....spicy. There are other sides of me that I'd like to explore. There are many different aspects of my life that I'm new to. Confidence, boys, loving myself, and sex. 

This part of my vision board is to remind me that just because I'm new, doesn't mean I can't be good.

​Confidence without arrogance, loving myself without losing my love for everyone else, making better decisions with men, and safely exploring my sexual self. 

In the near future, there are three things I want to get smarter about...

MONEY
BODY
SPIRIT

Money is rooted in evil, if you ask me. Unfortunately, it's a necessity for life. It has haunted me my entire life. I don't mean green bills and silver coins...I'm talking credit, investments, savings, and things of the like. I've had financial setbacks since I was born. I, like, many never received the proper education in this area and I'm having to pay for it right now. LITERALLY. I'm screwed for a while. My decisions with money, my ignorance about it, and my desperate need for it, is the reason why I would like to learn more about it. 

I'm not old by any stretch of the imagination, but I know as we get older, our bodies change. It's even more important to me because I have a bigger body than some of yall. So I want to get educated about what's best for me and my body as I age. I would definitely like to lose weight...about 50 pounds. I like being round...I just need to be a little less round. I'd also like to figure out what's best for my digestive health, as I've had issues with it my whole life. 

As far as my spirit is concerned, I would love to be more in touch with that side of myself. I go back and forth with deciding to nurture it. I'm interested in learning more about spiritual self care. 

I've always needed people. ALWAYS! And it's annoying. How can someone not be enough for themselves? That was me. And a huge part of the reason why it isn't is because people are unreliable. If I'm having a down day, I've got to be enough to make myself feel better. I've always had shit come up and knock me all the way down. Every single time, I've been let down by expecting someone else to make it all better. I CAN BRING SAND TO MY OWN BEACH! 

This part of my vision board is to remind me that my happiness and joy comes from within. AND I'M NEVER REALLY SAD WHEN I'M NAKED...So I'll be sure to throw more nudity into my life LOL

The third part of my vision board is all about moving from one thing to the next. 
It has been very difficult for me to accept and adapt to change in the past. I didn't take advantage of opportunities out of fear of how things would change. I've allowed people to stay in my life longer than they should have because I was afraid of letting go. 

I'm reminding myself to separate from other people's adventures and go find my own :)

In the interest of experiencing more of life, here's the adventure hopping piece of my vision board. It requires no further explanation.

 The next part of my vision board is all about the attitude I'm developing as a woman. Those of you who know me well have seen a shift in my attitude. Me and this attitude of mine still have places to go. It's not about what happens when I'm mad, well not entirely LOL, but how I carry myself, the vibes I give off, the way I feel about life.

These women are not what I aspire to be, but they have some significance in shaping this new attitude of mine.

Beyonce-sentimental to the start of my confidence (being beyonce in my head)
Rihanna- toughen up, UNAPOLOGETIC
Tracee- fierce, funny, cool, true to herself

I put these women on my vision board to remind me of the direction I'm going. Also, to remember my balance. Too much of one thing isn't good.

I didn't see any of these women and say heyyy I want to be her...I've lived a little bit of life and experienced things that made me realize it was time to change a few things. These women represent those things.

I have at least 10 more women that I could add to this, but this is enough for now. 

**Special shoutout to Angela Rye!! It’s only right to include her in this post.


Keep the prayers coming.

So I as I sat here for the 4th school day in a row with no school, I was stricken with boredom. I caught up on Black-ish and started watching Family Guy because that makes sense. When I get bored, it's dangerous. You know how it is when you're trying to be strong about some shit and then you get hit with spare time *insert eye roll emoji*. I was like oh noooo, I need to get busy with something before I send out some text messages I'd live to regret. 

Some time last year, I went with some friends to this vision board workshop. I spent the whole time trying to envision the vision board lol typical Ashley. I never got around to completing it, but I did keep all the pieces to use later. Well later turned out to be today! Yay!

So here is the first part of my vision board...

I don't think I need to explain any part of this. I think we all know me well enough to not have any questions. Of course, there are plenty other words that could describe Miss Alexander buuuuut why go there?!

In upcoming weeks, I will break down other parts of my vision board. 

To conclude...Here's my face :) 
Goodbye!