The FINAL piece of my vision board is all about choosing me and living my best life. 

CHOOSE ASHLEY: I always liked to think that choosing me was something I grew into doing. That's not true. I wouldn't be in some of these situations if I was truly choosing me. Recently, I made a decision that was TOUGH to make. I had to choose myself and I didn't expect it to be so hard. I'm learning that sometimes I'm going to have to fight myself to make the best decisions for me. 

I've faulted people and looked down on people that have ditched me for one reason or another and it all boils down to one thing: they chose them. Ultimately, it didn't matter how I felt about their decision to exit my life. At the end of the day, they mattered most to them. 

In order to be my best self, I have to choose me and be for real about it.  That's what this part of my vision board will remind me to do. 

This part of my vision board touches a little on the last one. I want things. I'm tired of wanting things. I'm ready to have them. All this talk in all these posts about what my vision board represents doesn't mean shit without any action behind it. The word "Finally" is so essential because it has been a loooooong time coming. That's all I have to say for this part. PS I had to throw eating in there because eating is apart of everything I'm trying to do. 

I wrote this blog months ago...​Funny thing is, I'm experiencing a current life hang-up that threw me all the way off. Life has discouraged me a little bit, especially from this part of my vision board. But that's why I have it. The vision isn't gone, it's just a little further away :) Happy Saturday, friends!

Saying no is not a major problem that I have with others. However, yall know how I always say "there are levels to everything"? Recently, I had a conversation with a friend who helped me realize that all the things that I've been trying to do to put myself first, need to be applied in other places of my life. MY JOB comes first. My job is my top priority. My job is sucking the life out of me. My babies are the cutest little people I know, but I have to start telling them no. Not to them, but to how much time and other sacrifices I make for them. 

Also, I'm not saying no enough to myself. I don't have a single (real) problem that doesn't go back to a decision I've made.

"Expect a change, love the transformation" those are words for me!! I can't make anything better for myself if I'm not changing anything. And I can't continue to be mad at what I don't have if I'm allowing myself to be defeated after every setback. I have to have higher expectations for myself. It's more than just attitude, it's action. 

This is my reminder to say no to my job, no to myself, make necessary sacrifices, and smile through it all because I'm going to be okay.