Okay so I'll do my best to explain myself. I had an overly emotional month! It lasted from February 29th until March 28th. When I say emotional I mean crying myself to sleep for 2 and a half weeks and falling asleep at like 830pm. 

I was already emotional but then all of this stuff started happening. Basically life as I'd known it had ended. I didn't see it coming and I didn't and still don't know how to handle it. 

Has someone ever looked at you and you just know they are staring directly into your soul? Yes this happened to me a couple of weeks ago with someone I haven't even known that long. It was actually quite uncomfortable. And I didn't know how to handle it. My soul was taken apart and read right before my very eyes and it was hard to watch. How does someone so new have the ability to do that?

And I was dealing with professional frustrations. I'll elaborate on this in my teacher blog. but basically I was being told to do stuff in my classroom that my kids didn't need me to do which would steal time away from the things they actually need. And the people I was talking to said there hands were tied so yeah. FRUSTRATED!

As I mentioned before, a large chunk of what happened is not my business to tell. It would definitely help fill in some gaps but I can't speak on all that. 

Ok guys life has continued to come at me really quickly. So many things have happened that have prevented me from even having the desire to write. I'm back and feeling better about blogging. I will try my best to explain what has held me back but a some of it is not solely my business and therefore will not be discussed. 

Just know that lessons have been learned, growth has been made, destinies have been fulfilled, and fantasies have been erased. 

I look forward to sharing as many details as I can and continuing the writing challenge that I co-created and accidentally abandoned.  

Bye yall :)

So first off, let me apologize for not keeping up with the challenge. Life has been coming at me fast this week. I'll do my best to keep going from here on out. 


Ok so the best thing that happened this week was my little buddy who told me he was stupid and that he couldn't learn, added within 10 all by himself and was even trying to help out his cousin who he's usually mean to!!! I gave him a paper with 6 word problems on it and he knew to add the numbers from the story to get the answer. I was so impressed and shocked, because prior to this, he acted as if he really couldn't do anything. Despite his outward appearance, he was really taking in what I was teaching. 

​:)

So initially I thought about that time I quit my daycare job and started working for Upward Bound while waiting to teach kindergarten, buuuut if we're talking about satisfaction, a different memory comes to mind.  

I made a grown up decision; no fear or no thought of consequences. In the words of Tej, I planted a seed, watered it, and watched it grow ;) What a lovely evening that turned out to be. 
Sex is not my greatest accomplishment in life! Please understand that. I'm saying that because I stepped outside of everything I knew to be me and met a different side of myself. I added to who I am that night and I didn't see it coming. My ability to step outside of the ordinary is what I'm proud of. 2015 was a great year for that. 

I was very satisfied with myself in 2015. Overall. 

Bye.

I'm in love with this topic!!!!

I'm a fatty and being fat is not the reason I feel some type of way about my body. There is not a single soul that I've encountered that feels 100% happy with their body. So when I say sometimes I'm not feeling myself, it's not a fat girl insecurity and that's like the number one thing I'd like people to understand. It's a person thing. 

I love my body just like I love every other part of me. Fat is what I am which makes it apart of who I am. No big deal.  

Truth be told, more often than not, I think I'm very sexy. And my weight has a lot to do with it. This photo is not of me (but it will be, thanks to Jalisa ;) ) however it embodies the sexy confidence that I wish everyone could feel. Good day, good people. 

I don't do weird things...I'm normal. 

• I dress kinda slutty and prance around my room listening to music
• I hang my head upside down off the side of my bed and listen to music
• I try my clothes on in unconventional ways (wearing a long skirt as a short dress)
• I walk around like I'm Beyonce. Because sometimes in my head, I totally am. 
• I blast songs on repeat. 
• Sometimes I cry and eat my feelings (if I had an emotionally draining day)
• I leave all the lights off and sit in silence. I enjoy the dark (maybe that should've been on my facts blog lol)
• I play in my hair and makeup
• Ummmm I can't think of anymore perfectly normal things that I do. 

For right now, it's that I'm an inspiration. 
My life started falling apart in 2014 and it happened in slow motion (yeah you better sing that Trey Songz) lol anyway it was like one thing after the other. In the midst of my life crumbling before my very eyes, I had people telling me that I was inspiring. How the hell they could be inspired by me is still beyond me. I don't understand. I was a mess, stressed out and completely unsure of what lied ahead. To be honest I was terrified of what lied ahead. I wanted to think it was going to be good, but I just knew it wouldn't be. 
The people who told this to me were people that I respected and people who I believe to be very wise. They saw something that I couldn't see and it was everything I needed to be able to propel myself out of my sticky situations. 
I will never forget that phase of my life or the people who could see past it. 

​Happy Tuesday yall!