Death By Sushi

Heyyy! So yall...my average weekly views went up by over 100 views the last few posts!!! WOOHOO! We're still doing baby numbers, but I'm happy!

Work has been crazy! One of my coworkers got his ass handed to him by our manager in front of us...talk about awkward...

I have to tell you guys this sushi story LOL

Sushi almost killed me. I was at work, got hungry and decided I wanted some sushi. When it arrived, I was so excited!! I started eating it with my little side of wasabi. Anybody who eats wasabi knows that it doesn't take much to get the job done. And if you don't eat wasabi, all you need is a tiny little bit to get the taste you're looking for. So I was happily eating my sushi and then I heard the ding in my ear which means a customer pulled up. I prepared my next bite of sushi while taking their order. I started preparing their order and I cashed them out. The customer went on their merry way and I went back to my sushi. I was about to prepare my next bite, when I heard the ding in my ear again. I was like screw it, I'm ready to eat this. So I quickly added my tiny bit of wasabi and stuffed the piece of sushi in my mouth. Remember how I said I had prepared my next bite of sushi? That means it already had wasabi on it. I was in such a rush that I didn't pay attention to that and added more wasabi. I realized my mistake when my face caught on invisible fire. I mean it went up my nasal passages, into my eyes, up in my head...invisible flames yall. To me it felt like it lasted forever, but it only lasted from the ding in my ear, to the customer driving to the window after my coworker took their order. It was short-lived, but the memory will be forever ingrained my mind. I will never look at wasabi the same way again. 

Let's get to the dark stuff...

This week's topic is about a problem I've been having. Ever since my dad died, making death a reality for me, I can't help but think about it. It usually only crosses my mind at night or when people don't text/call me back. What can I say, I worry a lot! Before bed, I used to be able to drown out the thoughts with tv. I would turn my sleep timer on and let the show ease into my mind replacing the negative thoughts. About a month into this job, the thoughts became more difficult to drown out. I would be up until 3 and 4 in the morning before my body would succumb to my exhaustion. During this time, I felt incredibly alone. It's like I didn't really want to talk about it, but I wanted someone else to be there. For the time being, it has gone back to being able to be drowned out by tv, but I know it won't last. I keep some NyQuil on my nightstand. Sometimes that's just easier! I've considered seeing a therapist about this, but I'm kind of afraid to. I don't even really know why. The worst that could happen is that things stay the same. I've managed this long...

Has anyone else had this experience? If so, what did you do about it?