Emotions

Before I jump into this week's topic, I want to address something. MISERY LOVES COMPANY!!! They say that and I knew that, but it played out in front of my eyes. I was amazed and disappointed in myself. I complained a lot about my 2nd job. Don't get me wrong, it still sucks, but I was surrounded by people who were hating their life, hence hating their work. I would go to work and hear all these awful stories and be around such nasty attitudes. One of those people quit and a new girl started. She had a totally different, more positive attitude. Working with her was like working at a totally different job! I still hate it lol, but I didn't feel that dread anymore. 

Anyway....
Lately, I've been reflecting on the parts of me that need a little work. One of them is how quick I am to react when I feel angry. It's something I recently noticed. When I feel other emotions, I have ways of dealing with them because I've always had to deal with them. Experience has taught me what I need when I feel those emotions. Anger, is relatively new in the sense that I was a person who got more hurt than angry about things. I was very non confrontational and I found ways to make myself okay with whatever "angered" me. I am not that person anymore, and I'm starting to realize I need to find ways to control myself when I get angry. I don't think enough when I feel that. 

I was trying to pinpoint what makes me angry, which I addressed a little last week. My anger is driven by the things I feel passionate about and also by seeing people who are the way I used to be, doing things I used to do. Some of my anger in situations that I'm not directly involved in comes from the part of me that wants to protect those who may not be as comfortable calling things out. I have passion outside of school!! I'm excited about that LOL. My passion for certain things has outgrown my fear of the consequences. I've been known to yell at authority figures. It's not right and I know that. I've also been known to speak on the behalf of others in situations where they're standing quiet. I know that's wrong, too. NOT THINKING! It's not my business. I just know what it's like to feel voiceless and people aren't that stupid. You know when you're doing some fucked up shit and you probably know that you're taking advantage of someone's inability to speak up or handle conflict. Not in all cases, but definitely in some.

Now that I've had time to dive into this, my current solution is to just stop and think. I don't need to react right away. I also need to mind my own business. You teach people how to treat you and everybody's gotta learn that for themselves. 

This week's blog question (PS Most of these answers came from men) (That has never happened before lol)
Which emotion is the hardest for you to control?

Answer 1: Patience and irritability
Me: I suppose those go hand in hand, if one is high the other is low and vice versa

Answer 2: Love
Me: WOW! We're going to have to talk about that

Answer 3: Rationalizing
Me: I see. So deciding if the emotions you feel are appropriate?

Answer 4: Sympathy
Me: Interesting, don't be letting people get away with shit because you feel bad!

Answer 5: Anger and fear
Me: Twinsies! + Fear. I'm curious to know what you do about the anger.

Anybody seen Inside Out? The movie mostly takes place in a girl's brain. You see how the emotions work together to make her who she is. Here are a few clips of "Anger" LOL Enjoy :)