Fat Girl

I don't represent all fat girls. 

I am a fat girl. I have placed myself in a bubble because of it. Never once was I bullied or picked on for being a fat girl. I created it in my mind. That's what an insecurity does; it makes your mind your worst enemy. 

I've always been the fat girl of the bunch. Self-labeled of course. It's an insecurity that's hard to get over. I don't take as many risks, I don't date (for this and many other reasons), and I have allowed myself to become a shadow standing behind my friends. Don't get me wrong, it's not entirely in my head. All I have is what I can see, which is guys all looking for the same girl (refer to one of my previous blogs, I can't remember which one). I don't fit that description, which has seriously fucked with my head. I've done so much fat shaming and it's ridiculous. I honestly am so mad that I created this problem for myself. 

After some time, I realized that I like the way I look!! I love who I am. Other people don't like it. WTF? Why am I caring so hard about your opinion that I'm allowing it to override my own? That's when I had to reevaluate my priorities. I can do whatever I want to do! I have no reason to sit here and limit myself because other people may feel that it's necessary. Other people make shit messy. I don't have time. People are always gonna have opinions, feel some type of way about what you do, screenshot your shit and send it their friends in group chat, and question every move you make. Being fat is apart of who I am, it's not everything I am. PS the word fat is an adjective. I don't mind it doing it's job to describe my physical appearance. 

My point is that I am a fat girl. You can hate it or love it, I'm still going to be fat and I'm still perfectly fine with it. With that being said, I do have some complaints...

Fat Girl Complaints:

Department stores make fat girls shop in the "Women's Section" but it's all old lady clothes
Thrift stores go up to XL...do we need a fat girl thrift store?
Bras don't need to be so expensive
Wide feet want cute shoes too
There are probably more but I can't figure them out