Final Thoughts of 2017

I ain't know how to end 2017, blog-wise so I decided to go on a date with my hubby, Jack and he said "babe, just type"...
With that being said, I got some shit to get off my chest....Confessions, I guess. 10 of them bitches...

1. This year, I had friends throw me off their priority list...well fuck it. I cared, now I don't. 

2. I let a dude dictate my mood. I let his opinion of me matter more than mine. I said my piece, I'm cool. 

3. I'm tired of not holding white people accountable for their whiteness. I'm not hiding behind my blackness anymore. I'm tired of being mad about what I hear them say. How is shit supposed to change if I'm keeping my mouth shut to keep the white people around me comfortable? They need to be educated and I'm so ready to do that. 

4. I've always shared with you guys that I think I'm Beyonce in my head...I think it's starting to seep out and be noticeable to others. I don't like that. As I grow as a person, I fall more in love with myself...but being conceited ain't cute. I need to check that shit at the door. 

5. I've come to value my home. I hate my apartment, but it's mine and I need to make decisions that's best for me and my life in it. 

6. I'm afraid of repeating past mistakes. My history with guys is young, and hasn't boded well for me. I have a new opportunity and that makes me nervous. I'm scared to have feelings, yall. I clearly don't know how to handle that shit. 

7. To piggy back off the last one, I have compensated by making sure I have more control. Feelings get out of hand and I'm doing my best to avoid that altogether.. I'm sad af about how my last situation kinda just ended. I have to train myself not to think about that shit.

8. Other people's doubts have always bothered me. I get it from people around me and it used to shut me down... UPDATE: IDGAF how you feel about my plans, especially since I don't plan to share them. Just know I'm movin on up....fuck how you feel about it.

9. Fear has held me back waaaaay too long. Yall, I'm snatching opportunities left and right. There's nothing to fear but fear itself...I forget where that comes from but that's some of the truest shit I've realized this year. 

10. As today marks the anniversary of the last time I saw my dad alive, I always enter the new year with this heavy on my chest. It now serves as a reminder to me. You never know when goodbye is really goodbye. This is relevant this year, as I have exited some relationships on a bad note. That bothers me so much because I'm not a bad person, and to know that some people have a bitter taste in their mouth after leaving me in their past or being left in mine, doesn't sit well with me. I have so much confidence in myself and I feel strongly about who I am as a person, but I never want people to leave me or be left by me feeling otherwise. 

As we enter 2018, I wish everyone the best. If you decide "new year, new me" I promise not to shade you this year. LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE, BECAUSE WE DON'T GET A SECOND CHANCE AT THIS SHIT!


Be about you in a way that no one else will ever be able to..
.love you like you love that sorry ass nigga you want so badly...
step into your potential and stop trying help somebody else realize theirs...
stop saying yes when your bank account says no...
​get to know you...
fall in love with you...
YOU CAN'T SAVE THESE HOES!!! SAVE YOURSELF INSTEAD!!!

MOOD ALL 2018
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