Goodbye 2019, Hello 2020

I wasn't going to do this. I had a plan for what my New Year's Eve was going to look like and it's already not going that way. I think that's hilarious because that's exactly how the last 10 years have been. 

I had plans for EVERYTHING and none of those plans worked out. Life happened. Life happening has given me some of the greatest experiences of my life!! But I can't let the next ten years just happen to me.  

My word(s) for 2020 is(are) INTENTION-INTENT-INTENTIONAL---you get it. I'm not going to go into detail. That's enough about that. 

So here are my top 10 Confessions/Final Thoughts/Lessons of 2019:

1. Negative self talk only manifests negative things in your life.
2. I'm obsessed with the eucalyptus and spearmint scent from bath and body works
3. I have to show up for myself like I do for everyone else.
4. Sharpies, flair pens, smelly makers, sticky notes. That's it. That's number 4.
5. I have to learn how to grocery shop on a budget.
6. Discipline and consistency are necessary to make change.
7. Ratchet TV calms me down when I'm anxious.
8. Reading is important to me.
9. We're a generation of people who don't go to the doctor. We need to go to the doctor.
10. Inaccessible and unavailable...

To quote myself from 2017

Be about you in a way that no one else will ever be able to...
love you like you love that sorry ass nigga you want so badly...
step into your potential and stop trying to help somebody else realize theirs...
stop saying yes when your bank account says no...
get to know you...
fall in love with you...
YOU CAN'T SAVE THESE HOES!!! SAVE YOURSELF INSTEAD!!!