Let's Talk About Sex

This is what I wrote back in 2015, a few months after I lost my virginity. To this day, it is still one of my favorite stories to tell...here goes. 

It was Saturday, July 11th and I had attended an event for work. It was exhausting, but lots of fun. A few coworkers and I had decided we were going to go out. We made a liquor store run and everybody went home to shower. We met up at a friends place to pregame. Everybody had their own liquor, which is crazy thinking back. We had vodka, tequila, and whiskey all in the same room with just 4 people. Everybody likes what they like, right? Somehow the conversation of sex came up and I happened to mention that I was a virgin. Before I could even say anything else, one of the guys was like "Bullshit." Yall...I dont know why, but I decided in that moment that I was going to have sex with him. I cannot tell you what about that statement turned me on so much, but it really did. I saw him so differently instantly. I felt drawn to him.

I became two people inside one body, battling each other. The "good girl" was like we are not doing this. The "new girl" was like yes we are, watch me work. I flirted so much trying to see if he could see what I was on. I discovered that we were on the same wavelength when he tried to untie my shirt in front of everyone LOL Everybody was too drunk to notice, at least I think so. The "good girl" was getting nervous. The "new girl" was getting excited! Like wow this is really going to happen. 

He was eating sour patch kids and I took the bag and ate the rest. He told me I would have to go to his place and get his other bag. (His place was real close). So I did. And I left him a note that read something like "She even excels at things she's new to..." I can't remember. Something along the lines of I'm a virgin but so. When I came back and gave him his candy, one of our friends decided he was ready to go home. The other friend was drunk off her ass not paying us any attention. There was music in the background and we started dancing. I made sure I had my entire body pressed up against his. Next thing I know, his hands were everywhere and I could feel his lips and tongue on my ear. The "good girl" started panicking and the "new girl" was like bitch go away, I got this LOL

The other girl that was in the room was totally in her own world! The guy and I changed the music to better fit our mood. I remember he was sitting in a chair and I stood in front of him. He started feeling me up and I could feel myself melt. Everything about this was wrong, yet so wonderfully right at the same time. At this point we had decided that maybe it was time to put ol girl to bed. She was so drunk yall! Oblivious to everything that was happening right in front of her. We left and stood real awkwardly outside her door. We went our separate ways and I was like oh, I guess it's not happening. 

Remember that note I left...He texted me about it and I went to his place. We had a conversation about something and he made me mad so I left. The "good girl" and the "new girl" were both silent. I was just Ashley making a decision for Ashley. I can't remember if I texted him or if he texted me, but I went back. He knew I was coming and he knew what I was coming for. There was music playing, the lights were off, and when I made it to his bedroom, there were no words...at first. We did a few things and he thought it was over. I was like no sir...you started something that you have to finish. And he did....

When we were finished, we kissed, he slapped my ass, and I walked home pantsless on wobbly legs. He's not a jerk...My own bed was really close LOL
Here's where I may have been a little immature, but SO! I called like 6 people, who I know were just as surprised as I was when I told them. It was in the middle of the night, so I didn't expect anyone to answer. The next morning, I called my bestie and she had been in either cincinnati or columbus with some of our friends so I ended up telling a hotel room full of people. 

That's it! That's my story and I'm proud of it. I had been propositioned with sex before this. I have been DRUNK and propositioned with sex with people I was close to, and I still said no. I have no idea why I said yes to him,, but it was a really great decision on my part. Everything about this decision shocked the hell out of me in all the best ways!


Now about those confessions-

1. I've had sex with all my partners twice. 
2. The number of partners is still on one hand and no, it's not the full hand lol
3. I almost died from sex, not from a disease, more like clumsiness
4. My first time was amazing!
5. All of my sex stories are good except for one. 
6. I haven't had sex since last April.
7. I am not having sex with anyone anytime soon.
8. I don't think sex is anything to be ashamed of. 

Blog Question-
What's one word you would use to describe your first sexual encounter?

Answer 1: Confused
Answer 2: Safe/limited
Answer 3: Mightaswell
Answer 4: Wet
Answer 5: Quick
Answer 6: Awkward
Answer 7: Special
Answer 8: Unexpected
Answer 9: Crazy

In honor of this week's topic, this song is only right :)