Rambling

Ok so how about a friend from work is cousins with those LoudPack Gang people...omg lmfao!!

I don't have a license...22 no license...old news anywho not having a license means that I'm a frequent passenger. You would think my experience being a passenger would motivate me to get a license and a car. I think differently from most...I won't even begin to break down that thought process because somewhere in the middle of that even I get confused. But back to being a passenger...When you decide to be a passenger, there are so many things to think about...do I have to pee? Am I even a little bit sleepy? Do I have something to do later at a certain time? If my ride doesn't feel like taking me home, am I prepared to sleep elsewhere? Is there a chance alcohol will be involved? Am I going to potentially be in an uncomfortable situation? Do I have everything I need? Will I wind up stranded? If any of these answers are in the negative, am I going to ruin plans for my ride? Ugh so much to think about. Which is why sometimes my brain hits overload and I forget shit. 

I had to use the block feature on my phone for the first time ever...it's strange. But dude was a creep. 

"Bad bitches"...le sigh. Guys always want what they're not prepared to have. Bad bitch, big booty bitch, weave down to her ass bitch, light skinned bitch, no kids, FOREIGN bitch (lmfao) "thick" bitch...first off let's talk about how yall always want some type of bitch and then be mad when she's actually a bitch...second, yall talking about yall want someone that's real and everything on her is fake! tf? third, yall want this " well put-together" girl but you're ugly, sloppily built, nappy hair, got 9 kids and you're American...I'm not here for this basic bitch yall all looking for. All of yall are looking for the same girl and got the nerve to act like yall all looking for something different. GTFOH!!!!

So I decided I hate secrets, especially when they involve people I'm involved with and/or care about being hurt. Like it just pisses me off that I'm 22 and secrets are still a thing...like if you can't speak up about your shit by now then I wants no parts. I like to clear things up instead of sitting around thinking about it. So and so did this behind your back...ok well let me go ask about it... <-- that's how I'd like to live. 

How about reality has been punching me in the face this week!!! I'm not mad...it's just crazy how quickly things can turn around all from how you look at something. Perspective and mindset are everything! When you fuck stuff up and ignore it, it slowly but surely fucks up other stuff. The consequences of ignoring things can be way worse than what would have happened had you just tried to fix it in the beginning. I've finally reached a point where I don't feel so hopeless and I'm getting slapped in the face in the process. I got myself in a bad situation and just acted like it never happened and now that I've realized what I need to do, I'm also realizing the consequences of waiting. 

Friends! The family you create for yourself...sometimes, they do some real stupid stuff and you just have to sit back and let them. You can tell your friend the sky is blue a million times but if they see purple, they're not going to listen to you. I don't think they do it on purpose, it's about reality hitting. I was the stupid friend in the above situation and reality hit me and now the sky is blue. 

I hate manipulative people...especially the ones in a position of power. But I'm no fool, I can see right through it. I'm just not dumb enough to let you know it. I need something from this too, so I'm not going fuck myself up to screw you over as you've proven you would do to me or anybody else. (I just really needed to get that off my chest) 

It pays to be nice to people. I left my phone in my supervisors car today and had no idea how I was going to get it back because I had no phone or money to call her. (are pay phones even still a thing??) this bus pulled up with my old regular bus driver! She loves me! (it's mutual, she's the best) She said "where are you going" (because she knows I wouldn't be on the bus going where she was going at that time of day) and I said "No where but I have a very strange favor to ask, can I use your phone?" she said "sure" and handed it over. I had to use photographic memory to remember my work friend's phone number because she was also in the car with my supervisor! She found it under the seat and brought it back to me! If I had been less friendly to that bus driver, I would've had to get creative and find another way to find my phone lol or been without it for a night :((((( 


If you know me, then you know I could talk forever!!! So I'm going to stop here and ramble on at a later date :)