Reminders and Things

You ever forget who you are? Just get lost in everything that's going on around you and totally lose sight of everything that you fought to become...? 

I had one of those moments just last week. I got this new kid in my class who is bat shit crazy, personal shit, and all these insane deadlines. I felt so defeated by my life and my career that I just forgot who I was for a couple of days. I had two very dark days. I was a total  bitch (which is not unusual hehe) but it was just worse than normal. I was so bummed out and angry that I couldn't even produce tears to attempt to cry it out. I was drained in every sense of the word. 

In those moments, I wanted everything that I couldn't have. But what I completely neglected, was everything that I do have and everything that I am.

I forgot that I am a strong, beautiful, intelligent, sophisticated, professional, and abundantly blessed young woman. I damn near wanted to slap myself for allowing those dark days to happen. Bad days don't all of a sudden strip me of what I've worked HARD to become. 

I'm not saying I won't have bad days again, I'm saying that I'm going to make sure I remember who tf I am next time. 

​Bye :)