Small Victory Provided by Jesus and Mary Mary

Hey guys! Ok so I have to tell yall how I ended up at my computer at 3AM typing a blog. I was sitting in my chair, listening to music, and the computer just came on...At first I was freaked out because yall know I don’t like that stuff...like why are you operating without my command? I walked over to close it and sat down instead. I lit my Eucalyptus Rain candle from Bath and Body Works and turned on Eric Bellinger’s Born II Sing Vol. 3. 

So I was about to take a filtered selfie for the post, but as soon as I opened Snapchat, the song said “...can I see you with no filter” LMAO. So I took the picture with no filter.

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I experienced a small victory this week. Yall know I’m trying to lose some weight. For some people, quarantine pushed them harder to workout. For me, anxiety paralyzed me. I started working out a little bit here and there, very inconsistently. I decided to go to the park and walk. It was hot outside, so I figured I would be melting after about 10 minutes. I turned on my 30 Day Song Challenge playlist and got to walking.

I listen to my playlists on shuffle. The third song was a gospel song, Mary Mary’s Can’t Give Up Now. I was about to skip it because it didn’t seem like the right vibe. Then I thought back to something my therapist said when I told her I was trying to workout more. First, she asked me what I listen to when I workout and I told her sometimes I listen to books or have some fast upbeat music. She said try to keep what you listen to happy and positive that way your brain connects that feeling to working out. When she said it I was like yeah whatever (in my head), I’m still gon blast Yo Gotti LOL,  but then that Mary Mary song came on and changed my mind. I listened to it and the words resonated so heavily with what I was feeling. It was empowering in a way I didn’t expect. Next, I asked Siri to play Shackles (Praise You). That 2nd verse hit me so hard I almost cried. 

Everything that could go wrong
All went wrong at one time
So much pressure fell on me
I thought I was gon lose my mind
But I know you want to see
If I will hold on through these trials
But I need you to lift this load
Cause I can't take it no more

​I listened to just that one song on repeat and walked my first mile since having to quit the gym in February. God carried me through that. I definitely was not alone! I didn’t even realize how long I had been walking. I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!! 

People have their qualms about celebrating the small things, but I honestly don't know how I would accomplish anything if I didn't have little milestones to celebrate on the way to finish line. Don’t punish yourself by ignoring your progress! Even more reason to celebrate...I did it again! The second time was a little tougher, but I made it through 🙌

What small victory did you celebrate recently? 

​Thanks for reading!