Brendon Pt 1

This the one right here yall. I know Charlie was yall favorite lol but Brendon was mine. 

Brendon and I matched on BLK about a month after things ended with Charlie. Rodney was still in the picture at this time, but I decreased the amount of time that we were talking because Brendon had my full attention. 

Let me tell yall about him. I thought he was so adorable!! His pictures showed someone who was tough and hardened by life, but also very cuddly. Kinda like a bear. They look so adorable with those ears, but get too close and they’ll kill you. AKA my type lol We initially bonded over our love of reading. HE LIKES TO READ!! He even suggested things for me to read and he got me hooked on Webtoon. If you’re familiar with Webtoon, I read the Lore Olympus series. It’s so good. Greek Mythology stuff. We also found this super funny:

He’s very family oriented. All about his mom, brothers and sisters. He didn’t know his dad, but knew of him. Unfortunately, he was dying. He alluded to some complicated things with his mom too. He loves his mom, but there was a lot going on there. Just a lot of parent shit which let my trauma informed ass know that I needed to be careful with this one. I am well aware of the fact that your relationship with your parents has a huge impact on how you show up in your relationships. This did not deter me. I just found him to be such a breath of fresh air, that this one thing was ok. 


We talked on the app for a few days and then I gave him my number. I really enjoyed talking to him. I thought the conversations with Charlie were good, but Brendon and I could talk about more. He was an open book. He answered every question, even if the answer was bad. He was curious and asked a lot of questions. It may be the first time that I felt like a man actually wanted to know me. In the past, I felt like I volunteered a lot of information to aid in the process of getting to know me. I forced it, I guess. Not with Brendon. I was glued to my phone waiting for his response, which always came reasonably quick. I could anticipate when he would text me because he never let too much time go by between conversations. And all that is how Brendon became a problem. I went off book on this one. It was supposed to be just sex, but I already knew before we met that that’s not what was going to happen. 

We talked all day everyday for about a week before we decided to meet. He came over and everything just felt so natural. It was like hanging out with someone I’d known for years. We talked for a couple hours and sex didn’t come up once. We were getting into the deep shit. Childhood trauma, relationship issues, what we wanted out of life…and then his sister called and he had to go get her from work. I was so sad yall. I walked him to the door and we were saying goodbye. We were standing very close. He tilted his head down a bit and our faces were like an inch apart. Ultimately, I was the one that leaned in for the kiss and omg. OMFG! Easily, hands down the best kiss of my life. He has these really big lips and I never kissed someone with big lips before. This would become a staple when we got together. We really loved kissing each other. It was intoxicating. So back to this goodbye kiss… There was so much passion and then it got hot. I backed away and told him it was too bad that he had to leave. He stepped closer to me and we started kissing again. This time it was hotter and deeper. His hands were all over me and I backed away again. I told him if he didn’t leave then, he wouldn’t be leaving for a while. He said “Don’t threaten me with a good time”. At that point I was like fuck it, we’re doing this.