Thanksgiving Break Victories

I have drafted so many blogs full of what’s going wrong, but I wanted to write about what is going right. There is usually always something lol there’s going to be some bad in here, but I swear this is mostly good!!

So we had conferences before Thanksgiving break started and the last parent I talked to yelled at me. I usually super love conference night because the parents make me feel like a celebrity lol I’ve been there so long and have always had great relationships with parents. This lady yelling at me really fucked me up because girl you and your kid are not going to be talking to me like this. No. And when she found out she was wrong, she didn’t even apologize. It’s fine though, our time is coming. But that’s the mental space I was in when break started. We had a staff luncheon the next day and I missed a meeting that got pretty…emotional and the energy at the luncheon was strange. I have a budding friendship with one of my coworkers and we went on a book shopping spree and went to have more food and drinks after the luncheon.

My spirits began to lift a bit. I still woke up at 6am on that first Saturday, but whatever. It just gave me more time in my day. I spent time with my old people, my best friend, other close friends, new friends, a new man (don’t get your hopes up, I don’t think it’s going to work out)…it was a great time. But do you know what was lurking underneath the surface??? You guessed it! ANXIETY!!! There was something happening with my body and yall know that's my biggest trigger. It seemed to get worse as the week went on, but I told yall this was a good post so let’s get to the good. 

I have not been able to see my therapist for a month and have been in the middle of a couple of anxiety cycles in that time. This last one was, by far, the worst one because I was feeling and experiencing things outside of the norm. It would’ve been really easy to sit on my couch or lie in my bed and wallow in my anxious thoughts, but several times during this week, I sought out community to help me get through this. 

I did not let anxiety steal my joy over break. I didn’t let work do it either! I was supposed to go in one day and do some things, but noooooo. I’ll see that place bright and early tomorrow morning. 

Instead of going to school, I did my meal prep. I only do three days at a time because the food doesn’t hold up well after the 3rd day and I don’t mind prepping mid week. I have found something that is very easy to prep, tastes good, and keeps me full most of my day. There are ways to increase the nutritional value, but that requires math and I’m not there yet. I do track it with the My Fitness Pal app, so I know it’s not bad. It could be better, though. Winner, winner, chicken dinner! This will be week three of meal prepping breakfast and lunch. I skipped a week for Thanksgiving, but I’m back at it for this upcoming week!

I was gonna say, “it’s the small victories that really add up” but honestly, I don’t believe these victories are small. I’m proud of myself! 

Four random things for the road:  1. I’m bringing back my monthly vision boards! If you’re interested in a vision board party, let me know! 2. I think I finally discovered where I’m crafty…it’s scrapbooking and cardmaking stuff! I’ve done this for years, but didn’t view it as creative…Idk why… 3. I’ve been binge watching Baddies lmao 4. I really miss sex 🙁

Anyway…here are more pictures from Thanksgiving Break 🙂 I hope everyone enjoyed their turkey day!