Being Delusional

Since we're snowed in, take a shot (or a sip) every time I use the word "Delusional" lol

So in my life, being delusional hasn’t worked out for me and I think it has a lot to do with the things I was choosing to be delusional about. In my younger years, delusion was a product of inexperience. Now that I’m a little older, I understand that being delusional can work in my favor as long as I’m being delusional about the right things. 

I just want yall to know that I was inspired by Te’Jal to think about being delusional. She recently started season 3 of Moments of Clarity. You can check it out on Wednesday evenings at 7:30 on IG Live (@tejaljarrae) 🙂 The first episode was about getting delusional about your dreams and aspirations! 

I’m not going to detail the goals I’m choosing to be delusional about right now, but I am going to tell you a story about the first time being delusional worked out for me. 

During the 2022-2023 school year, I got sick a lot. I wore a mask for a lot longer than most other people and when I finally took it off, I caught EVERY FUCKING THING!!! So when it came to the next school year, I was like “I need a sink in my room”. I have to really make sure everyone is washing their hands. Will that stop all illness? No, but it may at least give me the opportunity to show them how to properly wash their hands and have them do it anytime they do gross, but normal, 5 year old kid things.

I started doing some research and suggesting it to my principal. He was not the type to say no, but he didn't say yes a lot either lol anyway, he basically said if you find a sink for the right price that kindergarten can handle, we can talk about it. I was serious about it for a few weeks and then I didn’t think he would pay the prices I was seeing. I talked to the assistant principal and she was giving me ideas about sinks that could work. I started looking into pump sinks, but my brain couldn’t be okay with that. I just imagined water getting everywhere and I just thought it would require too many skills at once to have them step on the pump and wash their hands correctly. So, no, that was not going to work.

My school was pretty good at providing me with what I needed to do my job, feed the kids, and make school more fun, as far as supplies were concerned. But a purchase that was hundreds of dollars when there are sinks downstairs, didn’t seem feasible. I hadn’t given up, I was just unsure of how I was gonna get this sink. Well, the art teacher did not return and do you know what she had in her room? A portable sink. I got excited for a couple days, but then there were rumors that there would still be art, just done by someone else. So I was like that won’t work either. 

I taught summer school for most summers that we offered it. We always had so much fun! It was nice for finding out what things were going on in the building because our janitor was a talker. It was also a nice way to get your floors waxed first! Anyway, one of those hot summer days, I walked downstairs and there was a sink literally sitting in the middle of the hallway. I asked the janitor if there was a plan for that and he said no. I was like now there is. And that’s how kindergarten got a sink!

I was very unsure of how this was going to happen, but I just kept seeing the sink in my room.  And here it is...I miss my classroom!!